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Tuesday, September 27, 2011

The Ramblings of a Woman in her Third Trimester

I have officially entered the final third of my pregnancy.  This pregnancy has gone by much faster than Emma's did.  I am much busier though, that's for sure.  When I was pregnant with Emma I was somewhat forced to leave my job when I was about 12 weeks along.  I was finishing my Bachelors degree at the time, but was done in December (Em was born in May), so I had months and months and MONTHS of just the pregnancy to think about.  I vividly remember it seeming to take an eternity.  There's probably something about that first pregnancy that tends to make a girl very anxious to hold that baby and prepare every little thing.  I'm sure when I get closer to the end I will be anxious, but as of right now I just feel like he can stay in there quite a while longer!  Between chasing after an almost 2 1/2 year old, working (although it is very part time), and attempting (halfheartedly, I will admit) to keep house and prepare for this baby, I feel like the weeks slip by!  By the third trimester with Emma her room was completely done.  It was painted a very specific shade of lilac, the walls were decorated with things I painstakingly picked out, made myself or special ordered, all the furniture was put together, I think I even had my hospital bag packed.  Right now my little boy's room is only half clean, I haven't picked out the paint color yet, while I have all of the furniture none of it is put together.  Emma didn't sleep in her room, except for the occasional nap, until she was 6 months old, so the room isn't really my top priority I guess.

One thing I have learned is things that are needed and not needed.  If nothing else got done, we would still be ready for him, what do you really need but just diapers anyway.  I frequent a baby/pregnancy website and read the forums a lot.  There are often questions and discussions about what one needs for baby.  I've found that this is a very personal thing.  There are items that some moms swear by that others think are ridiculous, there are very few things people can agree on.  Some things people told me I just "had to have" I never used, and some things I was told not to bother with, I wanted so I got it anyway and used it all the time.

When I began this blog, I had a point I wanted to get to, but I can no longer remember what it was, so I guess I will continue to ramble.

So there are 2 things I want to do with this baby that I didn't do with Emma.  The first is exclusively breastfeed for longer than I did with her.  I made it 3 weeks with Emma, and that was with pumping and supplementing with formula.  I only made it 3 days exclusively breastfeeding, basically until my milk came in.  Pumping was miserable, I will not do that again at all, hated it!  I am scared I will give up again and have to deal with that awful awful guilt.  And now I can't remember the 2nd thing, nice.

This part of pregnancy gets more miserable by the day.  I don't enjoy being pregnant at all.  Sure there are parts that are cool, feeling the baby moving and, uh, ok that's the only one I can think of.  At this point water gives me heartburn.  I wake up several times a night to pee, even if I don't drink anything hours before bed.  I have a hard time getting up off the floor, or the couch for that matter.  I have the skin of a 13 year old going through puberty.  I can't remember things, like basic words, or why I went into the kitchen.  My nose has been stuffy since April.  My back hurts all the time, and my 30 pound toddler insists on being held and I won't say no 90% of the time.

In short, my brain is very low functioning at this point, as I'm sure you can tell from reading this post.