Day 11 of 28

The Breakdown:Day 1, 11/23 - weight 147, calories 1283, no workouts
Day 2, 11/24 - weight 146, calories 1441, weight training, stretching
Day 3, 11/25 - weight 145.2, calories 1294, cardio
Day 4, 11/26 - weight 145, calories 1428, weight training
Day 5, 11/27 - weight 146, calories 1523, cardio
Day 6, 11/28 - weight 146.6, calories 1377, no workouts
Day 7, 11/29 - weight 146.6, calories ~ 2300, no workouts
Day 8, 11/30 - weight 147.6, calories - didn't record past breakfast, no workouts
Day 9, 12/01 - weight 149, calories ~1900, no workouts
Day 10, 12/2 - weight 147.8, calories ~ 1400, no workouts
Day 11, 12/3 - weight 147.6,

Recap Week 1:
2 of 3 weight sessions for the week
2 of 3 cardio sessions for the week
1 of 3-6 stretching/foam rolling for the week

Recap Week 2:
+.6 of 11 pounds lost total
0 of 3 weight sessions for the week
0 of 3 cardio sessions for the week
0 of 3-6 stretching/foam rolling for the week

Goal weight by 12/20/11: 136

I am starting to DREAD coming here every  single day to report my short comings.  In a way it's good, if I didn't commit publicly I would have just flat out quit by now.  I haven't worked out in like a week.  My eating is MEH, some days decent, some days crappy, some days just too much even though the food isn't terrible.  I mean, I know this is just kind of how life goes, but I just get so disappointed in myself.  I know there's no way I'm probably even going to get under 140 by 12/20, much less to 136, so at this point it's just keeping my word that I will try to continue to lose despite this time of year being very hard on me eating-wise.  Food is my struggle, and it has been as long as I can remember.  I like to eat too much, and of very calorie dense foods.  I'll tell ya what though, I've been basically maintaining this weight, so I don't know if maintenance will be as hard as I thought if I basically just do what I've been doing -- which is eating kind of whatever a few days a week, and being semi-strict a couple days a week, along with weighing every day to make sure I own up to what I'm doing.  Just clinging to a small hope that I'll get a post-TOM whoosh of a pound or two in the next few days.

These last 10 lbs can go straight to hell!  I know if I buckled down for REAL it would not be this much of a struggle.  WHY can I not throw myself into it like I usually can!?  Am I just tired of it all, am I just scared of reaching my goal, am I just lazy?  Probably just the lazy thing!  UG!!!