Day 8 of 28 - Worse off than when I started

The Breakdown:
Day 1, 11/23 - weight 147, calories 1283, no workouts
Day 2, 11/24 - weight 146, calories 1441, weight training, stretching
Day 3, 11/25 - weight 145.2, calories 1294, cardio
Day 4, 11/26 - weight 145, calories 1428, weight training
Day 5, 11/27 - weight 146, calories 1523, cardio
Day 6, 11/28 - weight 146.6, calories 1377, no workouts
Day 7, 11/29 - weight 146.6, calories ~ 2300, no workouts
Day 8, 11/30 - weight 147.6,

Recap Week 1:
2 of 3 weight sessions for the week
2 of 3 cardio sessions for the week
1 of 3-6 stretching/foam rolling for the week

Recap Week 2:
+.6 of 11 pounds lost total
0 of 3 weight sessions for the week
0 of 3 cardio sessions for the week
0 of 3-6 stretching/foam rolling for the week

Goal weight by 12/20/11: 136


Well, as one can plainly see I did not do my workouts for week 1 like I planned on.  Lazy, no excuses, just didn't want to, wasn't willing.  Had pizza for dinner last night, again just being lazy.  Didn't go overboard as far as how much, but obviously was not in a deficit!  Also, Domino's doesn't have the calorie content of their newer Handmade Pan Pizza on their website, but I can only assume it has more calories than their handtossed because it's breadier and seems like there's more cheese on it.  So I can probably safely guess my calories were somewhere around 2300 for the day, but possibly even 400 calories higher I'd think.  Not only that but of course TOM, and so my weight is up MORE today.

I didn't do my normal measurements like I usually do on the last day of the month.  Mostly because I'm bloated, but partially because I had to be at work early this morning.  But ya, mostly the bloated thing.  I will do it tomorrow regardless though.

Honeslty, I want to quit this 28 day challenge because I feel like I've already failed.  But I will keep going.  The funny thing is that my jeans are still loose today, so I guess I'm not that terribly fat afterall.  I have to continually remind myself that people (generally, anyway) do not see me as a fat person even if I see myself as one sometimes. 

In January I will officially be on the wonderful insurance my kids and husband have been on since July, YAY!  I think I may see a counselor about my body image issues.  Sometimes I think I'm ok, but sometimes I really think I may have a problem.  No telling until I talk to someone I guess.