May Losses

-11 pounds
-31.75 total inches lost
-.3% body fat

Inches broken down:
Neck -1
Upper Arm -.75 ea.
Middle Arm -1.75 ea.
Lower Arm -.25 ea.
Bust -2.5
Chest @ Armpits -1.5
Under Bust -1.5
Natural Waist -4
Waist @ Belly Button -3.5
Hips -2.5
Butt -2
Upper Thighs -2 ea.
Middle Legs -.875 ea.
Upper Calves -.75 ea.
Middle Calves -.25

10 weeks today & Mini-goal met!

Pity parties must burn a decent amount of calories!  I reached a mini goal today!

Non-official (because there's 1 days left of May), I've lost 11 (ELEVEN) pounds this month!!!  I am now .8 pounds BELOW my pre-pregnancy weight.  And have lost a total of 43.8 pounds since December; 27.6 of that in the last 10 weeks.


Next mini goal is to get below 186, so I'm no longer considered obese (6.4 pounds to go), should be there by mid-June.

I'm officially down a size, actually, probably more.  When I started, the size 18s (ug, gasp, oh the shame) I had newly bought because I couldn't stand wearing maternity clothes MONTHS after having a baby were so tight I couldn't even really wear them because they were so uncomfortable.  So I'd say I was probably EASILY a size 20, possibly bigger.  Now I'm in 16s, and I can get into 14s (as long as I don't sit or breathe LMAO).

I really needed this today.  Thank you, scale, sorry for calling you a bitch yesterday!

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I'm feeling rather sorry for myself today.  Why, yes, of course I realize there are far worse things people are dealing with than a stupid sprained ankle, but waaaaaaaaaah anyway.  The worst part is really that I'm constantly fighting the urge to comfort myself with overeating food in general, and indulging in very high calorie foods.  Alas, I know that there is no comfort in food, only misery -- but it's still a struggle right now.  I felt like I finally was hitting a really comfortable stride with my workouts.  I know I just need some rest and can get back to it soon, but in the mean time it just sucks.  The scale has been being a little bitch lately on top of everything.  Really hoping it will cooperate and give me my 10 lbs for the month!  I won't be hitting my cardio goal (125 mins short) and will fall 1 workout short of my weight training goal because I had to skip legs on Friday, and will fall 3 workouts short of my over all days goal because I can't do any cardio.  The only thing I have left is the pounds goal

That is all for now.

BOO!

I would never say that I'm all that unique, but I often think I am the exception to the rule.  It has been 5 weeks now since I started working out hard core, and in the 5 weeks I've taken 2 days off.  I've been told by numerous gym staff (including my own trainer), my husband, and many internet strangers on various forums, that I am going to end up over-training and getting injured if I continue at the pace I've been going.  I've graciously agreed, to their faces, then turned around and rolled my eyes because obviously they don't realize that I am certain that my body would not do that to me.

From day 1 of running I started having pain in my leg right above the inside of my left ankle, running about half way up to my knee.  I kind of ignored it because I figured #1 I'm very deconditioned so of course there will be pain, and #2 I'm heavy, so of course there will be pain!  I also knew my running shoes were very old and that probably had something to do with it.  Oh, and my muscles are all tight and I refuse to stretch (working on that one).  Well this pain has gotten worse with every passing run and leg day.  And now it's to the point that it ALWAYS hurts, even when laying in bed.  I started googling yesterday (Dr. Google, I presume), and found out that it is Posterior shin splints.  Now I've had shin splints plenty of times (the Anterior kind), and never knew there was more than one kind until yesterday.  So I go reading through several sites and of course if there is anything that I could do to make matters worse I've done it (old shoes, running through the pain, tight calves, never resting, never icing, never elevating).  Well, I have new shoes now, I have no choice but to rest, I need to start icing and elevating, and I promise to stretch.  My only fear at this point is that I've run, and done other various exercises, too much through the pain and have caused a stress fracture.  I'm giving it until Tuesday to see if it gets any better, then I'm going to go to the dr.

The GOOD news is that I'm almost to my goals for the month!  I've already lost a whole pound more than last month and there are 5 days left.  I will get my cardio in somehow (biking or light walking maybe), and even though I can't do legs, I can do upper body still!  I'm trying not to get discouraged!  There are like 34 weeks left until the half marathon, and the training program is 24 weeks, so I have a good amount of time to let this heal and still not get behind with the training.

And only .8 pounds to go until my pre-pregnancy weight!!!

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Goals so far: 23/28, 9/12, 1055/1200, 9.4/10

Fat Face, Not-So-Fat Face *Edited with new pic comparison*

I've been very discouraged the last few days.  Between my weight not really going down, my overeating yesterday, and whatever is going on with the pain in my lower legs from running -- I've been a little grumpy.  I looked through some pics and what did encourage me is that I can see a difference in my face.  So I'm sharing as to attempt to give myself credit for the success I've had thus far.

The pic on the right is from Luke's newborn photo shoot on 1/1/12, 12 days after he was born.  Not only had I just had a baby, but for God's sake it's just about the most unflattering photo ever taken.  I'm only sharing it because it's such a difference from the newer pictures, otherwise I'd have deleted it. 

The pic on the left is from 6/1/12.

So there you have it.  Credit where credit is due I suppose.

And Tuesday She Rested

I feel better today, after my temper tantrum yesterday.  My weight was back down this morning plus .4, so I still may make it to my 10 pounds for the month after all; 9 days and 2.8 pounds left, it could go either way.

Back in March I joined a Memorial Day Challenge on a forum I frequent.  I pledged to go from 219.8 to 196 by Memorial Day.  I made that goal today.  I am proud of that, but it has somehow been overshadowed by, what I percieve to be, my failure to lose 3 pounds last week.  I'm really struggling mentally right now, and I think it probably has to do with being so tired.

I decided Tuesdays are my rest day, since I took last Tuesday off I figured I might as well make it the same this week.  My body is tired, I'm achey, I'm sore, and if I don't be careful I'm going to injure myself.  I have to take a step back and make sure that I am not overtraining.  It's an easy pattern for me to slip back into, same with restricting my calories too low for too long.  I still consider myself sedentary, even though I have been working out 6 to 7 days per week pretty intensly.  I haven't been taking that into account when considering my calorie level.  While that may, or may not, be the reason my weight loss has slowed the last few days, I don't know.  But I know for sure it is why I'm so sluggish and grouchy and overall just feel kinda bad.  These are patterns and habits that have creeped back in over the past week or so.  I'm aware of it, so I am working on it.

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Goals so far: 20/28, 8/12, 925/1200, 7.2/10

The Good, the Bad, and the Fatty



Brooks Ravenna

I went to Runner's Den today to get a very well deserved brand new pair of running shoes.  It was a very good experience.  The salesman, Barry, asked me lots of questions, measured my feet, had me walk around with just socks on, watched how I stood, and based on that brought out a pair of shoes.  I then went outside and ran back and forth in them while he watched.  They were comfy!  He then brought out 4 more pairs of shoes, all of which I tried on my right foot while leaving the original pair on my left, then went outside and ran with each one.  The last pair were the ones.  Very exciting.  He then told me about my stride and the way I run and how I need to work on certain things which will make my running easier and less likely to cause injury.  I signed up for a free class on how to improve all of these things.  I'm very encouraged!  And this is the Good!

The Bad and the Fatty are one in the same.  I've been doing wonderfully with my eating and in the gym.  I account for every calorie that I eat, ensure I get a God awful lot of protein, and I work my ass of in the gym every day - I push myself in my weight training and in my cardio.  I joined a month ago tomorrow and have missed only 1 day.  Yet since last Monday I've only lost .4 pounds.  In fact I was down 1.6 but somehow gained 1.2 pounds from this past Thursday to today.  I'm furious, frustrated, irritated, upset, mad, sad, and overall bummed, discouraged, and pretty damn grumpy about it.  I know that weight loss isn't just a numbers game and that fat loss is different from weight loss and that it will probably all come tumbling off here soon because a calorie deficit is a calorie deficit.  But for crying out loud it makes me want to scream!  I've been working so hard and it's difficult to not see that reflected immediately on the scale.  If I were talking to someone and they were complaining about the same thing I am right now I'd have all kinds of logic and encouragement for them.  I'd tell them to keep at it (which I fully intend to do anyway) and that the scale isn't the only measure of progress.  I'd tell them to be proud of their ever growing cardio endurance, and their ever growing stregth.  I'd tell them to be proud of how meticulous they are being counting calories and macro-nutrients.  I would applaud them for abstaining from junk food, and give them props for the portion control they practice when having a small indulgence.  Why is it so much more difficult to tell yourself the same things you would easily tell another person?  If anyone in this world were as mean to me as I am to myself I would never be around them!

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Goals so far: 20/28, 8/12, 925/1200, 5.6/10

2nd Meeting with my Trainer

Had my second workout with my trainer, we did legs, and I got my ass kicked -- it was awesome.  I really like this set up; I meet with her 2 times a month but work by myself all the rest of the time.  It gives me motivation and accountability, but also makes me rely on myself and lets me know I am capable of doing it alone.  I don't meet with her again now until June 7th, which is the day before my 2nd fitness assessment.  I have a lot of work to do in the next 3 weeks!  It doesn't feel daunting though, it feels motivating.  I have definitely been in the motivated arena the last 2 weeks or so.  I know that motivation comes and goes, so I'm trying to take full advantage of it while I have it.  Sometimes I'm not motivated at all, which makes the whole process much more difficult.  Motivation is kind of like the moving sidewalk at the airport, you don't NEED it, but it sure makes the journey to where you are going a little bit easier and quicker, not to mention kinda fun.


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Goals so far: 16/28, 7/12, 725/1200, 6.8/10

End of an Era & 8 Weeks Today

It was the end of an era!  A wonderful 23 day gym streak came to a tragic end yesterday!  I took a well deserved rest day due to a combo of a massive headach, stress, and being plain ol' tired, and felt extremely guilty for it.  Got up this morning and went to the gym right away due to fear that my 1 day off would result in 2 days off and then snowball into never going again.  Phew!  I got some problems in my head don't I!?  Honestly I'm considering going again tonight to make up for yesterday, although I know it's silly (logically) to feel bad for missing 1 measly day, I still do.  I meet with my trainer tomorrow, and I will be very happy to report to her I have done every single workout I committed to doing since the last time I saw her!  How's that for being awesome!?

I've been at this 8 weeks today and am down 23 pounds in that 8 weeks, 39.2 total!  I have had better results the past 8 days than just about ever, and I fully believe it's the combination of counting calories, eating a lot of protein, doing a lot of cardio, and getting 3 weight training sessions in per week.  I have done all of these things before and in various combinations, but never all in combination simultaneously!  I have been using My Fitness Pal to track my calories; I have used Fit Day and Spark People before as well as just using a physical food journal, but I like MFP the best.  This is where the little button on the top right corner of my blog is from.  If you are interested at all, it's totally free and you can "friend" me if you join.

It's pretty much exactly half way through the month at this moment and I am WELL on my way to accomplishing all of the goals I have set out for myself.  I am just 3.8 pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight!  It's so close I can taste it!  While 3.8 is A LOT to lose in one week (contrary to what The Biggest Loser would lead you to believe (I LOVE Biggest Loser BTW)), I am really really really going to try to get there within a week.  We will see!  I like setting tons of different goals, if I don't reach them in the allotted time that's ok, it's still motivation to work hard!

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Goals so far: 15/28, 6/12, 660/1200, 6.4/10

May so far

For the 2nd week of May I lost 3.2 pounds, for a May total of 5.2 pounds!  I'm thrilled about this!  I very well may reach my goal of 10 pounds for the month!  I haven't lost more than 2 pounds in 1 week since the first week or 2 I believe.

Got my workout in this morning, continuing my streak, which is now 23 days in a row.  I prefer to workout in the afternoon or night, but some days I just have to go in the morning to ensure I get it in.  This is what my workouts have looked like:

Mon: 60 mins cardio
Tues: Weight training (25 - 45 mins), then 20 minutes of cardio
Wed: 60 mins cardio
Thurs: Weight training (25 - 45 mins), then 20 minutes of cardio
Fri: 60 mins cardio
Sat: Weight training (25 - 45 mins), then 20 minutes of cardio
Sun: 60 mins cardio

I fully realize I will eventually need to take a rest day, and I fully realize I am doing A LOT of cardio and that MAY not be totally maintainable forever, but I'm feeling good and so far it's great so I'm going to keep going at this pace.

I would really like to run the P.F. Changs Half Marathon in January.  I need to do some research on training plans.  I'd like to be able to run a 10 minute mile the whole time.  Right now I can run 1 mile at 5 mph.  YIKES.  I mean don't get me wrong I'm so proud of the progress I've made!  But to run 13.1 miles, when right now I can only run 1 mile and at a slower pace than I'd like to, I don't know where that puts me!  I know I can at least finish it though!
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Goals so far: 14/28, 5/12, 640/1200, 5.2/10

Happy Mother's Day

It is 6:30pm, Jason isn't home from work yet, and BOTH of my children are asleep.  I've never gotten both of them to sleep by myself before.  This is insane!  Is it wrong to pray that your children stay sleeping?  I hope not because I do it often!

I'm very motivated right now, I'm so close to 1 of my mini-goals.  The weight has been consistently coming off this week, I'm at 2.6 for the week and still have tomorrow's weigh in left!  I'm definitely on track to reach my 10 pound goal this month!  I'm working very hard in the gym, and am counting calories again for the time being.  The encouraging thing about this journey so far is that I've already gone through several phases of eating and have lost through all of them.  I've worked out every single day since I joined the gym, that makes 22 days straight so far.  I certainly have had some days where I have NOT wanted to go, but I've had more days where I look forward to it.  It's MY time.

On a separate note (and it's not appropriate to go into specifics on a blog, so I'm not just being ambiguous for attention's sake), some pretty awful things have been going on, not to me specifically, but to someone very close to me.  I'm torn apart about it, broken hearted, sick to my stomach, and just awful thoughts of revenge.  Hate is not a pleasant thing to have in your heart, and I can honestly say I've never hated anyone in my life until now and I don't see how that feeling will ever ever ever go away.  There are some unforgivable things, some sins so horrendous and heinous that I question whether any God could forgive it either.  It's hard to stay focused on anything but this horrible thing.  There's no way this can be fixed, what happened, happened, there's no taking it back.  I can only hope and pray that justice will be served.  I honestly can't imagine what will happen if it's not.  I can truly now understand why people take justice into their own hands when things like this happen.  I feel guilty carrying on with my everyday things because of this, so it's been a real struggle the last couple days.  Stopping living my life will not help the situation is all I can tell myself, but it doesn't help the pit I have in my stomach constantly.  I feel totally helpless and useless.  This will be in the forefront for a long time, it will be a while before time could even possibly start to heal this.  The ramifications will last a lifetime for every single person involved, some more than others of course.

Ug.


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Goals so far: 13/28, 5/12, 580/1200, 4.6/10

Checking In

 Stuff going on, don't feel like posting much.

Work outs going well.  Eating is on plan.

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Goals so far: 12/28, 5/12, 520/1200, 4.2/10

Here it goes

I don't know why I've been so hesitant to post my actual weight on my blog.  It's just a number, and it's getting smaller (almost) by the day.  But I hit a big milestone today that I'm excited about, there's really no way to be ambiguous about it, so here it goes.  (For reference, I'm 5'6" tall.)

Starting weight, and highest pregnancy weight: 236 :o

Today I weighed 199.8!  It's still very high and embarrassing for me, but I can't even describe how amazing it feels to be out of the 200s.

Next mini-goal: My pre-pregnancy weight: 193.  I'm almost there!  It was actually my pre-pregnancy weight with both kids, weird!  I also gained exactly 43 pounds with both kids too.

2nd mini-goal: 185, which would mean I'm no longer considered obese.

3rd mini-goal: 175, which I got down to in January 2011, a few months before I got pregnant with Luke.  Once we started considering having another baby, I started gaining weight, how ridiculous of me!

4th mini-goal: 154, which would mean I'm no longer considered overweight.

5th mini-goal: 143, which is the lowest weight I've seen as an adult, maybe even as a teen.

6th mini-goal and current long term goal: 135.  I'll reassess at that point, or whenever, depending how happy I am with things.


I really can't even describe how hard I've been working.  I've NEVER worked this hard in my life.  Back in August 2005 I weighed 193 pounds and decided I needed to lose weight, I got down to 143 in less than a year, but all I did was restrict calories, smoke cigarettes, and do tons of cardio.  I still had a high body fat percentage (around 30% give or take), and still wore a size 12.  I was skinny fat.  I had lost 60 pounds but still was soft.  I know I will look totally different going down in weight this time than back then.  I've been working hard in the weight room, eating well and not too low, obviously not smoking, doing an appropriate amount of cardio (not 4 hours a day like back then), and I can already see a difference in my body.  It's been 7 weeks since I started this, but only 19 days working out at the gym, but MAN has a made all the difference.

So there it is, there's no more secrets now.
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Goals so far: 10/28, 4/12, 440/1200, 3.4/10

Fitness Assessment

I had a fitness assessment at the gym today.  It consisted of things like: blood pressure, resting heart rate, sit ups in 1 minutes, push ups to failure, body fat, weight, measurements, 1/2 mile run, and a few other things.  I have another one scheduled for a month from today.  It's definitely even more motivation since my progress will be measured in so many ways.  My lowest scoring areas were sit ups and flexibility; I wasn't surprised as I hate stretching and my core is very weak.  2 things to work on!  The trainer, Aaron, who does the fitness assessments suggested a website to track my food intake; I like this site a lot better than the others that I've used, the database of foods is extensive so I don't have to spend time inputting a ton of food because it's already there.  Tracking my food does help me, it makes me more successful, it just gets a little tedious sometimes.  He said I could add him as a friend on that site and he'd check in on me from time to time and give me feed back, I definitely am into that!  I am making progress, but I know that I can do better!  Tomorrow makes 7 weeks since I started, I'm doing well and I can push harder.

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Goals so far: 8/28, 4/12, 360/1200, 2/10

Progress is Progress

Happy birthday to my little girl, I can't believe it has been 3 whole years!

Got back on track yesterday and the scale reflected it big time today, I had lost all that I had gained over the weekend, plus an extra 1!  I really wanted to lose 3 this past week, but I'm happy with a 2 considering how badly I ate for 3 days!  Only 8.2 pounds to go until my pre-pregnancy weight!  It took me well over a year after I had Emma to get all that weight off (I wasn't really trying until after a year), so I'm very please I'm getting so close, it will be a huge milestone!  I kind of feel like the pregnancy weight doesn't really count, which I realize is silly, but I feel like I won't really be losing "real" weight until I get to my pre-pregnancy weight.

My workouts have been great.  I've been able to stick to 60 minutes of cardio on "off" days, and 20 minutes of cardio on weight training days.  I have been weight training 3 days a week since I started back at the gym.  It's been working very well for me.  I can already tell my endurance is improving.  I have yet to miss a day at the gym.  I will eventually take a day off, but I want to get a few weeks under my belt before I do.  Part of me is scared if I take a day off I'll never go back, I know that is a silly fear, but I figure working out every day is just fine.

Although I admittedly over did it this weekend (starting Thursday night) on the junk food, I really did do pretty well overall (obviously if the weekend weight is already off, plus some; it took me almost a week to get off the 2 pounds I gained on Easter, now that weekend I WAY over did it).  I decided at the beginning of this that I would really try to change my behaviors, some of those include being very hard on myself.  So while I need to be accountable for my actions at all times, I also need to give myself credit for the small victories.  One cannot change bad behaviors overnight and never look back.  It takes work to keep old habits at bay, any progress is still progress.

I work early tomorrow so my plan is to go to the gym before work and get ready there, go to work, come home and pick up the kids for story time, go home and have lunch, play with the kids, then at 3pm I have an appointment for a fitness assessment at the gym.  They do them every month or so to track progress.  It includes things like blood pressure, cardio endurance, flexibility, and quite a few other things I can't remember.  It will be nice to have another way to track my progress.

I'm really hoping that next Monday I will be able to report a 3 pound loss!  Although I'm (not so) secretly hoping for 4 to make up for the pound this week.  That is a lofty goal!  We will see what happens.  I know you will be on the edge of your seats!

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Goals so far: 7/28, 3/12, 340/1200, 2/10 (That's more like it!)

Sunday Check In

Definitely did better eating-wise today.  Got a great cardio session in as well.  Hoping that will reflect on the scale tomorrow.

Ah tomorrow.  My little girl's 3rd birthday!!!  3 years ago tonight I went into labor with Emma.  Such amazing memories.  So glad I never have to be pregnant again though!!!

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Goals so far: 6/28, 3/12, 280/1200, -2/10 (moving in the wrong direction on this one!!!)

Weekend Update

Thus far:  Didn't eat well Thursday night, or Friday morning, or Friday night, or today so far.  On the bright side I haven't missed a workout, plus walked around the zoo yesterday for nearly 4 hours.  The zoo was a blast by the way.  I am proud of myself for getting my workouts in but I have eaten more junk than I planned on.  One other good thing is that I haven't over-stuffed myself; I have no doubt I've over-consumed calorie wise -- but it is a milestone not overeating volume wise.  Typically, in the past anyway, if I eat crappy I will skip working out also because I figure I'm blowing it anyway, which really makes no sense.  I figure the least I can do is go burn off some of those calories I ate!

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Goals so far: 5/28, 2/12, 220/1200, -1.4/10 (moving in the wrong direction on this one)

A Good Day and Ramblings

I just feel good today!  Jason is off for the first day in 8 days!  I got my workout done already.  At the moment Luke is sleeping and Emma is at the store with daddy.  I'm watching an old season of The Biggest Loser.  And I have a second to myself!

I had my first session with my long term trainer, Mary, today.  I really like her; she is 42 with 2 kids, and I thought she was younger than me!  She looks amazing.  It's really nice to have a trainer I can relate to; I really liked the other trainer, Jason, who did my first 3 sessions, however I doubt I have much in common with a young (probably 23 years old) guy with a tongue ring.  He is a great trainer and super nice, it's nothing against him at all!  I'm just definitely more comfortable working out with a woman.  Now I will workout on my own until 2 weeks from today when we meet again.  I really like this set up; it allows me to have the accountability of having a trainer, but also makes me rely on myself.

I don't really have much else to report today.  Just checking in.

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Goals so far: 3/28, 1/12, 140/1200, .4/10

6 Week-iversary

6 weeks ago today I started this journey!  I'm down 17.2 pounds to date since March 22nd, and have lost 33.4 pounds since my highest pregnancy weight in December -- 19 weeks ago; I have 9.6 lbs to go until I'm at my pre-pregnancy weight, and I am going to work my ass off to ensure that comes off by the end of May. 

I've only been weight training for a week and a half (4 sessions total), but I kid you not it has made a difference already!  When I lost weight in the past, my weight training was sporadic, at best.  I have always been the queen of cardio; I can do cardio for hours, and that's great for weight loss.  But weight training is what shapes your body, I know this of course, but it's HARD and it HURTS!  I'm doing it though, because it's worth it and it makes me feel amazing afterwards.  I know a few months, even a few weeks, from now I will be so much stronger and in better shape.  I don't want to be skinny, I want to be strong and FIT!

The next 5 days are going to be challenging for me.  Tomorrow is Jason's first day off in 8 days!  Friday we are taking Emma to breakfast (she loves pancakes) and then to the zoo.  Saturday is a little party for her at my In-Laws' house.  Sunday is a little party for her at my parents' house.  Monday is her actual birthday.  I have to remind myself that I am not required to eat the equivalent of an entire cake over the coming days.  I have to commit to getting my workouts in.  I have to commit to myself that if I eat foods that aren't my everyday foods that I will eat them in moderation.  And I have to keep telling myself that while it's great to have yummy foods and enjoy celebrations, it's not ok to overindulge because "I deserve it".  I've never once overindulged and felt good about it, I have to keep this in mind.  I have been working so so so hard and I don't want to set myself back.  My issue is that I can plan until the cows come home, but it's those in-the-moment decisions that usually screw me over, I'm impulsive.  That's not to say one bad extended weekend undoes everything, because it certainly doesn't, but it's more than that for me.  For me it's about learning to control myself around foods and situations that I, in the past, have completely lost control.  Eating myself sick masked as anything other than self abuse is just me trying to fool myself.  I have to prove to myself that it is possible for me to not feel deprived during these types of special occassions, but also that I don't have to overindulge.  Food is one of my demons, and it's not something I can just cut out like when I quit smoking nearly 4 years ago.  I have to learn to respect myself with food and not abuse myself with food under the mask of "treating myself".  I've "treated" myself into obesity, not so much a treat at all is it?  I need to keep a visual of myself sweating my ass off on the treadmill, and how long I'll have to spend burning all those extra calories off if I don't practice moderation.  So my goal is: To enjoy myself, eat a little of everything that I want, don't stuff myself to sickness, get my workouts in, give myself credit for every single small food victory.

I meet with my new trainer tomorrow.  I signed up for training after receiving 3 free sessions.  I will meet with a trainer once every other week.  She will write me a program to follow EXACTLY between our meetings.  This way I get the benefit and accountability of having a trainer without the extreme budgetary hardship.

Kind of an all over post today!  I'm having one of those all over type of days in my head.

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Goals so far: 1/28, 0/12, 60/1200, .4/10

May Goals

Workout 28 of 31 days in May

12 weight training sessions

1200 minutes of cardio

Lose 10 pounds

Plan is to post how it's going at the bottom of every blog in May.  So when you see something like this at the end of a post:

Goals so far: 0/28, 0/12, 0/1200, 0/10

You will know what I'm talkin' 'bout.